A PERSONAL TESTIMONY:
From Agnosticism to Bible-believing Christianity
This is the story of my journey from Atheism through Agnosticism to becoming
a believer in Jesus Christ. Now I can face death with total confidence! I became
a Christian in 1987-June. Until then I had rejected a relationship with Him for
both personal, and what I considered to be intellectual reasons. I remember that
even as a child I found it impossible to accept the idea of God. Before my
conversion I thought the following:
|There is no God.|
|Life on earth evolved|
|Jesus was a myth.|
|The Bible was so old it could not possibly be accurate. |
|Visions of heaven and hell experienced by some people close to death
were biochemical changes in the brain. I had no doubt these stories were
useful for controlling people!|
By the time I was eleven I had no faith at all, but as a teenager I began to
think that there might possibly be a God so I was baptized and confirmed without
really knowing why. I still could not accept what the Bible teaches. After
school I continued going to church more out of habit than anything else. I could
not understand what making a "commitment to Christ" was all about. I
assumed it meant accepting that Jesus was a man with a beard, wearing a robe,
living in Israel and that He claimed to be the Son of God. But I had difficulty
believing in God, let alone knowing what He and His Son are really like.
I was not always easy to live with, determined to compensate for my
shortcomings. My world was built around me. I was a controller. I said yes to
everything my Christian friends said because the quickest way to get someone to
shut up is to agree with them! The barriers to any relationship with God were
well and truly up! But He broke them down because He loves each of us so much
that He tries anything to get through! God so loved the world that He gave His
only Son that whoever should believe in Him shall not perish but have
everlasting life (John 3:16). Behold, I stand at the door and knock: if any man
hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him…(Revelation 3:20).
This is how it happened. First I began to feel strange, it was though I was
suffocating from the inside, however there was no clinical explanation for it.
Then one Friday evening I met with three Christian friends to pray. Because
Christians prayed I thought I could be a Christian by praying! Rather like being
in a garage and pretending to be a car! The young woman in the group began to
say things about which only I knew. She said, "Stop your boasting…You’ve
nothing to boast about. Salvation comes by faith not works… You did not choose
me, I chose you…. The only thing you will ever have to boast about is that it is
I and I alone who have saved you." I was terrified. I gasped: "It’s true!
There really is a God and He knows exactly what I think!" Then it happened!
There was a violent rushing wind from above. It filled the room and penetrated
both my eardrums but no damage was done. My whole body was filled with this
powerful but gentle wind. The suffocating stopped and I could breathe properly
again. There was no wind outside and as the doors and windows were closed there
was no draught. It was like a scene out of Pentecost! (Acts 2:2).
After several weeks I came to the conclusion that the Spirit of God had met with
me in a very powerful way. Pentecost only happened because Jesus lived, died and
rose again. I thought, I prayed, I read into the evidence supporting the
Christian faith, even someone stated, "If God needed to be made He wouldn’t
be God!" All this convinced me of the truth of Christ: His life, miracles,
teachings, death, and resurrection. He has ascended into heaven and one day He
will publicly return in person and judge everyone. In the light of this, no one
can sit on the fence! Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life, but whoever
rejects the Son will not see life, for God’s wrath remains on him. (John 3:36).
In 1987-June, I made a conscious decision to turn away from being wrong before
God. I made a commitment to serve and love the Lord Jesus Christ. He died for me
personally. This choice and belief is essential for eternal life and the only
way to escape God’s wrath. Of course, I am referring to those who can decide for
themselves and that is most of us! The Holy Spirit is now to us what Jesus
Himself was in the flesh, He moves different people in different ways.
If you are ready to receive salvation can you pray this prayer?
Lord Jesus Christ, I am truly sorry for all of the wrong things I have said,
thought and done in my life. I ask you to forgive me. I believe you took all my
sin on yourself when you died on the cross for me – personally. You rose again
to give me eternal life with you. Please come into my life as my Savior, Lord
and Friend. Thank you. Amen.
If you feel you cannot do this ask God to reveal the truth and Himself to
May God bless you and bring you closer to Him.
Copyright © 2003 by the author
Originally written: 2003-MAY-12
Latest update: 2003-MAY-12